Monday, 28 December 2009

Jumping Music Swift D.J.s Smoke Machines And Laser Rays

I'm having laser eye surgery in two hours. I am feeling a bit ... jittery. I didn't sleep much last night so I'm relying on caffeine to keep me awake this morning. My coffee/stress diet is always a bad plan but I always resort to it when I'm in survival mode. It's silly but I am in survival mode right now. I feel like I can't tell anyone how scared I am for this surgery because it's something I've chosen to do. It's not necessary. I don't have to do it. Perfect vision is something that I want. I just ... don't want to have to have surgery to get it.

So I'm here. Watching the clock. Wishing away the minutes so that I can go get it over with. Trying not to cry when Shawn makes the "bzzzzz" noise and points at my eyes because he really does think that I'm stronger than I am and that I'm not scared. Which is ridiculous because I'm the lady who hasn't been to the dentist in over two years because of the anxiety attacks that hit as soon as the dentist chair reclines.

The good news it that I went Boxing Day shopping and splurged on new bed stuff. I got a pillow-top mattress pad and new king-sized pillows and a fluffy new duvet and duvet cover. Paired with the new Egyptian-cotton sheets and soft, flannel pyjamas that my mom gave me for Christmas, our bed is somewhere that I'm looking forward to spending the next few days in. Plus there are two kinds of ice cream in my freezer. And a nine-hour audiobook (The Sweetness At the Bottom of the Pie by Alan Bradley) and thirty-five podcasts (You Look Nice Today) on my ipod. I'm as prepared as I can be, is what I'm saying.
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12 comments:

  1. Anonymous28 December 2009 at 11:17

    Stoked for you, friend!
    I have all the confidence in the world that you're going to be brave and a-ok :D

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  2. Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks28 December 2009 at 11:49

    Make sure Shawn dotes on you today. And the rest of this week, for that matter. Milk him for all you've got!

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  3. Tia28 December 2009 at 11:57

    You'll be just fine, and the rest of us with crappy eyes and glasses will be SO jealous!

    P.S. hit Shawn for being mean to you! Better yet, use his new socks to tie him up as punishment for teasing you :)

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  4. -J28 December 2009 at 13:33

    Good luck!

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  5. Lemon Gloria28 December 2009 at 13:37

    Next time you post, you'll have perfect vision! Yay!

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  6. Angella28 December 2009 at 17:42

    Well, you're playing me in Scrabble, so I know it went well. ;)

    Happy for you!!

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  7. Britt28 December 2009 at 19:34

    Speedy recovery to you!

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  8. Anonymous29 December 2009 at 07:15

    How'd it go how'd it go?!?

    I have always wanted the laser eye surgery, but am about as scared of it as you. It takes away my one standby comfort behavior: closing my eyes during scary medical procedures.

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  9. doahleigh29 December 2009 at 09:45

    I'd be scared too, but I'm very jealous. I want to fix my eyes!

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  10. Bathwater29 December 2009 at 09:59

    You are going to love it! The next day you will be seeing great!

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  11. Alice29 December 2009 at 10:21

    you're reading these comments with PERFECT VISION and no contacts, aren't you!? JEALOUS JEALOUS JEALOUS JEALOUS!! i've been in for the screening and was turned away :-( no lasers for these eyes. did i mention JEALOUS !?!?

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  12. Emily Jane30 December 2009 at 10:27

    You were most definitely in my thoughts yesterday and I'll be sending good, happy, get-well vibes your way x

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