Having a 95-year old grandma who has just had a stroke is admittedly not ideal but it's not all bad. I mean, every time I see her I get to announce my pregnancy and every time it's like she is just finding out and she's giddy and excited. Until things get awkward and confusing because she thinks I'm my sister (sorry, Turtle - Gram thinks you're pregnant. Though if you give it a day, she'll forget.)
My grandma is tough-as-nails but she's also 95 years old. It's not fair of me to ask for just a little more time. Time for Gram to meet her first two great-grandbabies (my little sister is also pregnant and is also due in July.) Logically I know that my grandma's quality of life is diminishing and she's old and she's sick. But a small part of me wants her to hold on, just a little longer. She is my last remaining grandparent. I'm not ready for her to be gone, as selfish as that may be.
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I hope your grandma gets to meet her grandbabies too. (also, didn't know your sister was preggo too! Fun!)
ReplyDeletei've been completely absent recently and am sorry i was not around to help buck you up last week and tell you you're not crazy and add my voice to the pile of internet love :) but! add me to the pile of internet love! belatedly!
ReplyDeleteit's also not fair that people have to leave our lives before we're ready, so i don't think it's wrong of you to wish for more time. here's hoping she does get to meet her grandbabies (repeatedly!) :)
er... great-grandbabies. derrr.
ReplyDeleteOh, hunny bunny. I hope she gets to meet your baby. It's not selfish of you at all. It would be so much joy.
ReplyDeleteI totally hear you on this and hope she can rally.
ReplyDeleteHugs, lady. xoxo
Doode, I'm late to the party! Congratulations on the little Hill and so sorry about Grandma, but imagine how fun it must be to constantly be surprised and elated! You're making her so happy every time you give her the news!
ReplyDeletenot selfish - just natural. we felt the same way wanting great granddad to meet his first great grandchild, even he used to say that he didn’t think he'd be around to meet the baby - anyway 5 years on, he's still here! :O)
ReplyDeleteOn the other note.. a very good friend of mine was a total daddy’s girl, they were extra specially connected they did everything together so when he was given months to live she was torn apart. Not long after his diagnosis she found out she was pregnant with an 'oops' baby! She prayed that her dad would live to see the baby . When she was 17 weeks pregnant she was in the hospital holding his hand while he slept, then for the first time she felt the baby kick and just that moment he took his last breath... amazing really, I love the story, i love what it means to her, the circle of life, the transfer of energy... whatever you think - you just can’t deny that they do live on in us hu? :O)
Much love fatty x
:( I hope you be around to meet your baby!
ReplyDeleteit's not selfish at all! i hope your grandma gets to meet the bebes!! lots of hugs and love hillary. woo!
ReplyDeleteMy great granny is 97 and can't tell my 2nd cousin Monique and I apart. This is genius because we both get bonus points when one calls AND Monique has kiddos and is generally more successful, so I get to mooch her good rep with granny.
ReplyDeleteSenility can be kind of handy, in its own way.
I often think of what it would be for her to have great great grandkids, but I'm the eldest and uninterested in being a parent.