Tuesday 26 October 2010

I Always Feel Like Somebody's Watching Me Who's Playing Tricks On Me

I write about my life on the Internet. I post photos. I tell stories. I share aspects of my life - of my crazy - that I don't feel comfortable talking about face-to-face. Typing words into a computer gives me a certain sense of freedom that isn't necessarily logical. If I think it through, it's actually quite probable that people I know in my every day life - people who I don't feel comfortable talking to face-to-face about certain things - are reading my blog. So I get twitchy and take my blog offline ... and then I get emails and messages from you lovely bunch, reminding me why I blog in the first place. So thanks, lovelies. Thanks for letting me get a bit crazy sometimes and thanks for checking to make sure everything is alright. Everything is alright. I promise not to think too much in the future to avoid situations like yesterday's meltdown.
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15 comments:

  1. MLE26 October 2010 at 12:10

    There is nothing that sucks more than feeling like you have to sensor yourself because of who might be reading your blog. I feel your pain, and I totally support whatever decision you might make about the state of the blog. ((Hills))

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  2. Anonymous26 October 2010 at 16:53

    I feel the same way, especially since I gave the guy I'm seeing the URL before we started dating...
    Sometimes, you need to distance yourself, or take some time off. Don't ever apologize for it :) We'll always be here if/when you decide to take a break/come back from a break!
    Much love lady xoxox!

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  3. Anonymous26 October 2010 at 18:37

    I was in meltdown mode today too re:people I know in RL reading my blog. Glad I'm not the only one!

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  4. Blog hog26 October 2010 at 20:57

    If I make you uncomfortable hanging around your blog, you can let me know, I wont be offended.

    I missed yesterday's meltdown whatever that was, hehe

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  5. Anonymous27 October 2010 at 05:52

    I missed the meltdown too, but you have to do what's right for you, and we will still be here, thinking of you fondly, ready to welcome you back if you need to take a little time :)

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  6. Anonymous27 October 2010 at 05:52

    I missed the meltdown too, but you have to do what's right for you, and we will still be here, thinking of you fondly, ready to welcome you back if you need to take a little time :)

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  7. -J27 October 2010 at 06:24

    You took your blog offline?? How dare you! Only I can do such insane things. :-) Glad you're still around.

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  8. Angella27 October 2010 at 06:29

    Hugs, friend. We're here when you need us. :)

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  9. Kyla Roma27 October 2010 at 09:32

    Ah! Had I known I would have been all over you, lady! I'm glad that you're feeling better now- that over exposed feeling is a hard one, but anyone who knows you knows your heart. And if they don't get it, they'll stop reading. It's better to have who you are out there than not, in my books :)

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  10. Lemon Gloria27 October 2010 at 10:53

    I understand this. It's so much easier to type your true feelings and publish them to a whole bunch of invisible people, but then when real life people could be reading and judging you in person, it can make a person fret. The thing is, I think most people are very caught up in their own stuff, and won't necessarily take the time to peer into your online mind.

    Hugs to you, lovely.

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  11. jessica maria27 October 2010 at 12:39

    hearts!!

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  12. Alice27 October 2010 at 13:31

    you do whatever you wanna do online, missy. if you take down the blog, we'll support you. through our tears of despair, obvs, but we'll still support you ;-)

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  13. Heidi28 October 2010 at 07:28

    I worry about the different hidden dangers of blogging too. When I started my blog, I didn't use my own name and I specifically used a picture that's too blurry to really identify me (same one is still on there). Over time, I started making references to surrounding places and now I'll throw my pictures up there and talk about different places we go. Sometimes I wonder if I've provided too much information. Could someone FIND me if they wanted to?

    Also, there's the people that may read it and end up KNOWING who I'm talking about... It's hard when you want to gain followers, but you don't want them too close. I would love for all my "real" friends to read mine but unless I want to email them every time I post something, you generally have to just post your blog link on facebook or something. I refuse. What if I decide to talk about some obscure memory from highschool that shaped me somehow and Bam - the elementary bully reads it. Or, I write amount some weird family moments and Bam - my grandma reads it. It's tough.
    We're all in this together! It's hard to be exposed!

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  14. Lindsey30 October 2010 at 17:09

    I've done the same thing many times over the last 5 years. You're totally normal! :)

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  15. Marie2 November 2010 at 21:17

    It's ok if you take down the blog. I'll still send you cards from time to time and email you to check up on you. You do what is best for you lady!

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